Noble Poptart's Overreaction

Well, due to recent and non-recent events I'm probably not going to be on for a while. I have work in the summer, and I have a few problems with the server.

I just don't enjoy being on the server. I was "Afraid" of saying this before because I did not want to face the fact I might be wrong, which is of course my fault but whatever. It's not even your fault, serious roleplay in general is slowly dying. I mean, the framework has a core that's 11 years old.

The City Administrator and the SeC are out in the streets, and when I call them out on it they say "Sitting at a desk is boring". Citizens don't give a shit and regularly try to "hack" the Nexus shield because there is nothing else for them to do. Certain members think High Command means being excessively mean to everyone, but High Command is a retarded idea in the first place. I flag down as a citizen to try and interact with units, and I just get told to isolate with repetitive VC. We block of areas. We have BMD flags. We tell people that they need to FearRP and PainRP or they are a "Minge". We don't let people craft their own unique experiences because we are afraid.

I feel like I don't have any pull to change this, the solvent majority disagrees with me which is fine, it's not like I am always right and everyone is equally entitled to their own opinion. this may be a server for someone, but it is not for me, Yet. I hope that I can find a server that caters to my interests, or maybe even this server will do so. Overall, don't worry about changing, to put it colloquially, "It's not you, it's me."

Addressing my CA Application, I don't care if I get a CA whitelist. The fact that people here (Despite being non-staff) would assume that I would "sabotage" other people's applications is a revolting thought for me, and maybe I care about other people's opinions too much. After pondering my place in Swiftgaming for a while, you could say this was the final straw that broke the camels back, and I need to develop my maturity if I want to handle things like this with grace, instead of being pushed over the edge.

I accept fault for my shortcomings, and my inability to help the server grow. I wish you all well in the future, and perhaps I will return later on if I feel I am ready. Despite this, I also encourage the server to grow and improve, and avoid monotony and stagnancy. I will probably still get on to roleplay with the select few I love to roleplay with, and I'll glance around the forums every once and awhile, but I am separating myself. Happy trails.