A Formal Apology

I'm sorry. From the bottom of my heart. Truly here. I see that when I criticize Stone Cold for always wanting RP to be his way,I was worse. When Cucumber wanted to stay out of problems,I made things my problem,and when Swifting gave me an admin strike,I overreacted (Quite a bit) Here's the logs.


MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Right

Stone Cold: Admin strike for what?

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): SwiftingFinest: [LOOC] Sarah Dunwich Clemmons: Swifting's being a cunt again

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Indeed.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Because.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): You

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Are

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Biased

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Against me

SwiftingFinest: not at all, Clearly the other way around. I've had enough, You're recieving an admin strike for the disrespect, Its starting to really frustrate me now.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Fine

Stone Cold: -_-

Stone Cold: Such a low insult..

Stone Cold: Even Leah called me a cunt

Stone Cold: And I didn't give a shit

Stone Cold: Back IC?

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Nah,I'm goig

Stone Cold: Ah ffs!

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Im considering wiping the forums.

Stone Cold: Huh?

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I'm pissed.

Stone Cold: Then take a nap

Stone Cold: And dream about things

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I want Mike dead.

Stone Cold: Woah there.

Stone Cold: It's only a strike

Stone Cold: It can be deleted anytime

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): He's had a grudge against me for ages.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I want to end it.

Stone Cold: Ah don't be like that 3rd Hokage and Orochimaru

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Fuck Naruto.

Stone Cold: Ikr

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I want to delete it all,cripple the server completely.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Fucking cunt.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I've been disregarded ever since the server was made.

Stone Cold: Yeah, I don't even know why am I still the most like trusted staff

Stone Cold: Seriously

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Given lowest rank of the staff team,no SeC's,CmD's etc,no control over the server at all,no votes,no suggestions,everything I say,Swifting either denies or outright deletes.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Just want to take a knife and jab it into his throat.

Stone Cold: I don't blame you at all.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I'd say a quarter of all the rules are just for me.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I'd wouldn't care if you sent this all to Mike.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Hell,I'd be glad.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): The server's worse than LP with him controlling it.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I feel like going DvL ICE and killing everyone ICly.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): PK's

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): That'd be fun.

Stone Cold: Yeah, sure.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Fucking hell.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I feel much clearer now.

Stone Cold: How so?

Stone Cold: By throwing all your hatred on me?

Stone Cold: Yeah

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): No,not that.

Stone Cold: I'm a hatredbin xD

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I have a plan now.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I'm not joking,Adrian.

Stone Cold: Why would I ever think of you joking?

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Contemplating completely killing everyone here.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): So

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I'll join

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): And the first thing I'll do

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Is shoot the CmD in the back of the head

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Then the SeC

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Then I'll go outside

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Kill the citizens.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): It'll be simple

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Fun.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): More fun than RPing with Swifting

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): My neck is actually twitching right now.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Is that normal?

Stone Cold: Not really

Stone Cold: Unless you're insane

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I might be. Tried killing someone once.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): I've wanted to stab several people in school.



SwiftingFinest: You have had your forum rank removed, as you contemplate wiping the forums

SwiftingFinest: Also

SwiftingFinest: Its not nice to want people dead

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): So.

SwiftingFinest: So..I think you know

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): When will I get it back?

SwiftingFinest: Never.

SwiftingFinest: You are not being an admin anymore



Well. I can say this. I'm sorry. I can't handle pressure like this,and I need something to vent it out. Stone Cold did a good job,and I knew all along he'd be posting it back to Swifting,I knew what was coming. And truth be told,I knew that I wasn't going to do any of these things anyway. So,when I say that I'm sorry,I mean it. I don't expect to get admin back,hell,I KNOW I won't. And I'll leave this post on a little fact about myself. I don't actually like ERP. My favorite kind of RP is MedicalRP. 

Stone Cold: I'm sorry for what just happened

Stone Cold: All of that grudge

Stone Cold: It's all my fault

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Huh?

Stone Cold: Looks like I shouldn't be a staff member

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): Stone Cold.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): It isn't your fault.

MaXenzie (Immune To ERP Rules): It's mine.



So. I'll play on the server atleast a little while longer,I don't really have anywhere else to go. I could ask for CC or DDG to take me back but that'd be demoralising as hell,and I wouldn't have the guts to do that,I know they're bad people. But when I look at this server,all I see is a bunch of people dedicated to making the best RP experience possible. I hope you continue RP as normal,just don't expect me to do any admin things. (Since...You know...I'm fired...Forever.)